Me and Ted (oldest brother), Christmas 2005.

I haven't really been up for blogging or emails lately. I went through a really rough two week period at work that really got to me. Trying to be happy, support myself, and figure out what I want to do with my life (that will help others and feel spiritually and artistically fulfilling). So I've been driving around visiting with good friends. And when i'm home I'm just cooking and vegging out watching movies/tv.

Seriously looking into getting a puppy. I emailed a Cairne terrier breeder over in GA. (the dog from Wizard of Oz-Todo) I love big dogs but it's not the best thing for me to go for a big dog since I live in an apartment. When (and if) I can locate a puppy that decides to adopt me (ha), I'm going to name it Fizz-gig (pet from the Dark Crystal). So be praying that I find a doggie. I feel that it would be a really good thing for me right now.

Recent movie purchases:
Bladerunner (Director's cut)
The Craft
Saved
Zoolander
The Million Dollar Hotel

Birthday CD purchases thanks to friends:
Nine Inch Nails: With Teeth
Gorillaz: Demon Days
Death Cab For Cutie: Plans
All-Audio German

The Vintage Vault

Date: Sat, 7 Jan 2006 08:30:01 -0800
Name: cindy ann
E-mail: starflyergirl@hotmail.com
Mesage:
Happy Saturday Geno,
Here's a few to pick from:
Jane's Addiction: Mountain Song
Morrissey: Jack the Ripper
Anything by Our Lady Peace
Ride: Dreams Burn Down
Thanks as always to you for the show. I look forward to it every Saturday.
c

Date: Sat, 7 Jan 2006 08:44:43 -0800
Cindy,
I'm glad you enjoy the show. I LOVE doing it. I already played some Smiths today. I haven't played Ride on the show in a loooong time. I will look for some.
I'll play 4am by OLP sometime after 11.
Thanks for listening,
Geno

Perfect choice. 4am really hits where I am right now. I really appreciated it.
Have an awesome rest of the weekend.
c

+++
4am
by Our Lady Peace

I walked around my good intentions
and found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years
we hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate
then a phone call made me realize
I'm wrong

If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
just like the sunny days that
we ignore because
we're all dumb & jaded
and I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong

I walked around my room
not thinking
just sinking in this box
I blame myself for being too much
like somebody else
I never thought I would just
bend this way

I am not a South Park fan but I couldn't resist making a little South Park Cindy.

Rough day at work. Came home to a chilly apartment. So I ate tuna and crackers and had a glass of cranberry-cherry juice....curled up on the couch with my minty green blanket and put Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind on. I honestly love this movie and put it in my list of favorite films. I've stayed away from watching this movie since I first saw it in the movie theater. It is a touching movie that really relates to a lot of myself. And I was finally ready to watch it without it making me upset. What an amazing movie.....be sure to check it out if you haven't already.

I really hope that I can regain my faith in people and in myself. I have lost so much hope to life experiences that ended in let-downs and just growing up. Things aren't new and fresh like they were years ago. Things aren't hopeful and achievable. And you wish you had someone there with you to love you and encourage you to go for your dreams.

Alright, I'm off to more vegging..... I have been driving around the south-east the past three weeks and am ready for some cozy blanket couch time.

night,
c