Sunday, August 16, 2009

Lexapro, Smeckzapro.

So I've been on my medication (Lexapro-10 mg) since last Friday. So that's just over a week. I've asked a couple of people I work with (and trust-one started Lexapro a month ago), a couple of friends, and Jason to keep an eye on me. I'm just curious to see if anyone sees a change either it be good or bad. They say it takes 1-2 weeks to feel a benefit from the drug and 4 weeks to get the full benefit. One of my co-workers said they could already see an improvement in my attitude and humor in the first week. But I am the type of person that usually has high peaks of happy times and then can hit rock bottom soon after. So I could just be on the upside of my usual mood swing. Everyone I have told has been very supportive. And I am learning that more and more people take anti-depressant and/or anxiety medicine that I trust and look up to.

Last weekend was a super sleepy weekend. I'm taking the meds at night since my co-worker said it makes her sleepy. And she was right. But I'm doing something I don't usually do, which is waking up around 2am or 3am for a potty break. Now, I'm a horrible sleeper since I'm a night owl. But once I fall asleep....that is it. I don't wake up until it's time to get up. So the nightly trips have been a bit annoying. It seems like my appetite has increased a bit. I'm already a big eater/snacker from running. But my snacks don't seem to be lasting as long as before. I've seemed to be more of a comedian lately....and not really caring what people think. But not in the numb way that most people say prozac or zoloft can make you feel.

We'll see. I've had several people tell me that they think my issues are not just from all the drama I was raised in but also a chemical thing. So even though I was very scared of starting a medication routine before, I'll finally get to answer the question on if my issue is truly outside of my control and medication can help to level me out in a healthy way.

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Jumping Down the Rabbit Hole


I'll tell Morpheus "hello" for you. Tomorrow begins Day 1 outside of the Matrix.