Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Timeline For a Complex Girl

- A lot of stores are starting to offer "Self-Checkout". One reason I don't like this idea is because simply put, it is intimidating. Another reason is that I want to go through a checkout line and see a real person. With me losing my job in the next 1.5 months, I'd rather choose the option to go through a regular line so that someone else won't lose their job too....

-My Christmas tree is up. Hooray! I'll have to celebrate some early Christmas festivities this weekend by baking something and watching A Nightmare Before Christmas. Can you believe that I have never seen this movie?!

-My birthday is this Saturday...... Wow. I'll be 28. If anyone has known me for a while they know that I have a theory from when I was a child. Little girls often like to play house and daydream about who they will marry, where they will live, and how old they will be when they get married. All of my friends would say 20-24, but for some reason the number 28 always popped into my mind. So this weekend begins the humorous journey of my 28th year of life.............let's see what happens, maybe Mr. Right will be revealed to me......ha, I wish (grins).

-Work is getting really crazy for me. Please pray for me in deciding what to do over the next few months.......

-For the first time (last Saturday night) I prayed to God to help me 'let go' of someone. I have been praying about this off and on the past 6 months, but wasn't being honest with myself I guess. I would pray, "God please help me get through this difficult time" or "God please reassure me that I did the right thing." The thing is that I DID the right thing, but I have continued to hold onto my heartache, my past disappointments, good and bad times, if He has gotten over me and if so 'why?', etc. But I finally asked God to help me let it all go............... I knew this was something I needed to finally be honest with myself on, but also I owed it to whomever I will finally end up with. I can't bare the thought of being with someone else with unresolved feelings still there for Him. I had to deal with that for the first 2 years of our relationship. So, I know how painful that can be on someone.......

-I finally finished Blue Like Jazz by Don Miller. I am now re-reading the first three books of the "Series of Unfortunate Events" by Lemony Snicket. This is in preparation to see the film this weekend. I am so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love you guys. Be peaceful and give peace to others. Good night......

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

So what did you think about 'Blue Like Jazz'?

Anonymous said...

:-)

good for you cindy on the letting go thing! there's no reason for carrying around all that emotional baggage, because all it does is keep you down. take it from eryka badu's "bag lady".

joey